Amit Kunnath

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Peculiar Roads

When peculiar roads intertwine into rivers

And butterflies land on the shoulders of sinners

When the sky shares its colour with sweet marmalade

And takes on the texture of a frothy milkshake

When butterflies land on the shoulders of sinners

And the oil on the pan so very gently simmers

When hasty decisions capture Life’s bliss

And you wonder What is the Meaning of this?

When the oil on the pan so very gently simmers

And you eat the dead chicken’s delicious livers

When old wooden houses summon you home

And you cannot help but feel so wonderfully alone

When you eat the dead chicken’s delicious livers

And you kill the young hare with an arrow from your quiver

When nourishment for one means loss for another

And you long for the embrace of a long-lost lover

When you kill the young hare with an arrow from your quiver

And a thunderstorm is birthed by a gentle pitter-patter

When rainclouds unite to form marvellous streets

And water provides you with a Life-giving treat

When a thunderstorm is birthed by a gentle pitter-patter

And you forget if you referred to the former or the latter

When into your nose drifts the strong scent of incense

And you see the world through yet another strange lens

When you forget if you referred to the former or the latter

And you need to dispose of someone else’s litter

When the cleanliness and joy of the past start to fade

And for Hope, you are left with no choice but to pray

When you need to dispose of someone else’s litter

And butterflies land on the shoulders of sinners

When strawberry milk is all that you taste

And you finally win the never-ending race

When butterflies land on the shoulders of sinners

And peculiar roads intertwine into rivers

When raindrops transform cavities ’to lakes

And things occur for their own very sake

When peculiar roads intertwine into rivers

And butterflies land on the shoulders of sinners

When the sky shares its colour with sweet marmalade

And takes on the texture of a frothy milkshake

The Raven: A Prose Retelling

This poem is by the writer Edgar Allan Poe, and is now in the public domain. I hope you enjoy my prose adaptation of it. The original text of the poem as written by Poe can be found on the Poetry Foundation website.

I was reflecting on a quaint and curious volume of lore from years gone by, during a dreary midnight. So late it was that I nearly drifted into sleep, but just before I nodded away, I suddenly heard a tap sound, perhaps of someone rapping at my chamber door.

“It cannot be anything but a mere visitor, tapping at my chamber door,” I said to myself, trying to remain calm.

I recall quite distinctly that it was on a bleak December midnight. The warmth of the fireplace crackled as it left behind its ghosts, in the form of embers, upon my floor. Growing impatient, I longed for tomorrow to come. I so longed to feel sorrow, but it was sorrow that my books could not provide, for sorrow I indeed felt for the lost Lenore; she was a beautiful girl, so pure and angelic, and it was the angels themselves who named her, but she shall, now and forever, remain nameless.

As I sat in contemplation, feeling sad, my silken purple curtains rustled, bringing about yet more misery. The sheer thrill of something so simple filled me with such fantastic terrors; fantastic terrors that I had never felt before. To calm my rapidly beating heart, pulsating with undying fear, I had little choice but to repeat the words, “There is some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door on this late night. There is nothing more to it than this.”

Then, my soul’s resolve began to strengthen, and I no longer felt so hesitant as I did before. I began to speak: “Sir, or Madam, please do forgive me. As much as I would like to help, the fact is that I was napping when you so gently came tapping at my chamber door. So late it is and so tired I am that I was quite unsure if I even heard you!”

So, I spoke, and then I opened the door and saw nothing but empty darkness.

I began to sink into the depths of that darkness, and began to wonder, fear, and doubt my senses. I saw dreams that none of the created had ever dared dream before, and yet the silence remained unbroken. This stillness gave no clue as to the nature of this mystery. The only word breaking the silence was a quiet whisper of the name, “Lenore?” – a whisper that escaped my own lips and no-one else’s.

But then I heard a reply to that whispered name! O, what a relief to realise that it was nothing but an echo of my own voice.

So, I returned to my chamber as my soul burned and burned, but then I heard another tap, and it was somewhat louder than the one before.

“Surely that is something at my window lattice,” I said to myself, as I moved towards the window wanting to explore this mystery. It is probably just the wind, I thought to myself.

As I flung open the shutter, a stately raven flew in from the saintly days of yore! He paid little respect to me, nor did he have the courtesy to stop or to stay. With the same aristocratic demeanour of a lord or a lady, the bird perched itself upon a bust of Pallas above my chamber door. He perched, and he sat, and he did nothing much else.

The ebony bird enchanted me so that my sadness was no longer expressed through tears but through a smile, and it achieved this by its grave and stern decorum; that strange expression that it wore.

I spoke: “Despite your being presentable – your neat and tidy appearance – you are certainly not an emblem of cowardice! You are ghastly, you are grim, and you are ancient, and you have come wandering from the Nightly shore. O One who hails from the Night’s Plutonian shore, tell me: what be your name?”

The Raven said, “Nevermore.”

What a curious phenomenon! What a marvellous specimen from the family of the ungainly crows is this Raven: it speaks plainly and simply, even though its words are meaningless and devoid of any worth.

Nonetheless, I think we can all agree that no-one in the history of humanity has been so blessed as to find himself in my position: to be introduced to a bird or beast, perched upon his chamber door, with such a name as “Nevermore.”

That lonely Raven sitting upon that placid bust spoke no word other than “Nevermore.” It was as if that word defined his very soul and gave meaning to his days. He stood there, silent, and still, until I said, “Many of my friends and my hopes have flown away from me before. So too you will leave me; you will fly away tomorrow.”

“Nevermore.”

I was startled. This bird broke the stillness of the silence by replying with the only word it knew how to speak, yet it made perfect sense as a response to my misery.

Reminding myself not to become beholden to superstition, I said, “There is little doubt that your speaking ‘Nevermore’ is merely what you have been taught by your Master, who must be a rather unhappy individual for whom Hope was eroded by continual Disaster, such that the only word which could bear their burden was the empty word, ‘Nevermore’.”

The Raven was still working to turn my tears into smiles, and so I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of the bird, the bust, and the door. As I sank into the velvet, I dedicated myself to finding some connection; some connection as to what this ancient, grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt, and ominous bird meant in croaking “Nevermore.”

So, I sat, weaving stories from mere guesses, but unable to find the words to express my thoughts to the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom’s core. Nonetheless, I appeared at ease, my head reclining into a velvet cushion, as the lamplight shone over it as if to say, “Nevermore.”

I felt as if the air grew denser thanks to Seraphim, the sound of whose feet tinkled on the tufted floor. “You are a wretch,” I cried, “though you come from God. Through his angels, he has sent you respite and a nepenthe that can cure me from my grief having lost the lost Lenore. You take this kind nepenthe; please forget this lost Lenore!”

“Nevermore.”

“Whether you are a bird, or whether you are a devil, you are but a Prophet, and so that I shall call you. Prophet, whether you were sent to me by the Tempter, or whether you were tossed ashore – to this desolate yet not at all daunting desert – by an unforgiving storm, on this home that Horror has now haunted – you tell me, is there balm in Gilead? You must tell me; I command you to!”

“Nevermore.”

“Whether you are a bird, or whether you are a devil, you are but a Prophet, and so that I shall call you. Perhaps you were indeed sent by God, who dwells in the Heaven that we both do adore, tell me – for I am a soul laden with sorrow – if in Paradise there exists a saintly girl who was named ‘Lenore’ by the angels. Is there a rare and beautiful girl who resides in Paradise, whom the angels named ‘Lenore’?”

“Nevermore.”

“Whether you are a bird or an evil demon, I suppose that that word shall symbolise the ending of our acquaintanceship. You must return to the deathly storm that rages on the Night’s Plutonian shore! Do not leave behind any small black feather, as a token of the lie you have just spoken! I would rather remain forever lonely than to be in your company, so you had better quit that bust above my chamber door! Remove your beak that you pierced into my heart, and let your form disappear from off my door!”

“Nevermore.”

The Raven never paid heed to my command. It is still sitting – yes, it is still sitting! – perched on the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door. His eyes look like those of a dreaming demon. The lamplight above him throws his shadow on the floor, and my own soul floats above that shadow as it lies there on the floor.

It shall be lifted, nevermore!

To Provide and Receive Advice and Feedback

To provide and receive advice and feedback
To prevent others from falling into that very same trap
The trap that prevented you from being able to be free
The roadblocks that stood in the way of your being happy
The obstacles that forced you to pave your own track.

You desperately need others; that is a fact
They will guide you, for friendship’s an everlasting pact
In good faith, your flaws, they will help you to see
To provide and receive advice and feedback

You must not fear receiving feedback
For advice is not necessarily indicative of lack
For within you is dignity that flows like a sea
So there is no need to fall into negativity’s trap
To provide and receive advice and feedback.

For Me, She is Not

Are you there?
Or are you just a decoy dream in my head?
Am I home or am I simply tumbling all alone?

On The Wing, Ocean Eyes, Owl City, 2009

Words flow from her lips into my sweet soul
Most suffering, her hugs can surely heal
Her sweet embrace makes me feel rather whole
Her bright Love, I long to enclose and seal
At her mere sight, I do feel quite renewed
Indeed, I feel careless thanks to her Love
But for her Love, I must – I must pursue
Like a brave Pilgrim who longs for his God.
For me, she is not. She is not for me
Despite her kindness, her comforting warmth
To long for her Love – it won’t make me free
To pray for and Love her is but a fault
I must ensure that I stay in my lane
To entertain thoughts that won’t cause me pain

Farewell to the Past

Upon completion of a season,

Once a chapter has finally been written,

New roads emerge;

Highways converge

To form new paths and extinguish old dreams.



The freedom that comes from success:

You’ve passed all those challenging tests!

You start to sigh,

And then you cry

As pain intertwines with pure bliss.



You struggle to see clearly ahead;

The future looks like a dead end.

Freedom at last;

Farewell to the past

As you leave the comfort of your warm cocoon.

The Devotee

This poem is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to real life is entirely coincidental.

The Sun smiled down on Her loyal Devotee.
The Devotee accepted the Sun’s loving warmth.
The warmth reached the ground through the shady trees
As dappled light landed gently on the ground.

The Devotee longed to see more of the Sun
So, he retreated from the forest floor.
To deserts and savannahs, the Devotee would run,
For he so longed to see the Sun’s burning core.

After running and running for many long years,
The Devotee found himself in unusual places.
He became fully immersed in all of his fears,
Surrounded by new ideas and unfamiliar faces.

“You worship the Sun?”, asked a proud Skeptic.
“The Sun gives me life”, the Devotee replied.
He so believed gods are their own greatest critics.
The Skeptic, however, laughed but then cried.

“Poor fool”, the Skeptic cruelly began,
“The Sun is a star; it knows not of your existence.”
“The Sun provides light to many great lands”,
The Devotee replied, voicing his objection.

The Skeptic laughed and walked away.
He thought to himself, “What a foolish Devotee.”
The Devotee then began to pray,
“Sun, I long for you to set me free.”

The Sun was indeed a compassionate god,
She asked, “What should I do to set you free?”
“Your face is always obscured, dear god,
I wish to see you in all of your beauty.”

The Sun grew increasingly concerned;
The Devotee’s request was full of risk.
It keeps alive mammals, plants, and birds,
But the Sun’s light could also make it hard to live.

The Sun, nonetheless, answered honestly.
She said, “To see me, all you must do is look up.”
The gift of Vision sailed away from the Devotee,
And he felt as if he had lost all his luck.

“Oh, Sun, you vengeful god,
Why this fate you have given to me?”
The Sun replied, “Do not sob,
It is you who wanted to be really free.”

The Devotee felt ill at ease.
The Sun felt sorry for the blind man.
“Freedom is not what I have received,
But blindness; I can’t even see my own hands!”

“Every gift is also a flaw.
My light gives life but also takes away sight.”
The blind Devotee let out a great roar,
As he wept and wept through the never-ending Night.

“I shall never again worship the Sun,
For the Sun took away my precious Vision.
In my life, I will no longer have any Fun.
I will never be able to achieve my ambitions.”

So he spoke, the disillusioned Devotee,
As a cold wind swept across his face.
Every door was locked; he wanted a key.
The Devotee longed to return to his place.

But a pilgrim in a foreign land,
Separated from home by mountains and seas.
The language, he couldn’t understand.
Would he ever again be free?

The Night grew colder and spoke to him:
“Poor Devotee, you have been betrayed.
You worshipped the Sun and so did your kin,
But the Sun has led you to this terrible fate.”

The Devotee sighed and agreed with the Night,
So the Night grew gentler and the wind settled down.
“Night, you are a god of great might,
Help me out of this pain into which I now drown.”

The Night chuckled and said to Her Devotee:
“Leave behind the Sun, and become one of My disciples.”
The Devotee was quick to accept and agree:
“Night, you are the only god who is reliable!”

So the Devotee switched his allegiance
From the light of the Sun to the darkness of Night.
The Devotee was certain that he would find freedom,
Now that with gods, he would no longer need to fight.

Just as the Devotee was going to pray,
The Sun rose up once more in the Eastern sky.
“Night, don’t you leave me, don’t go away!”,
Said the Devotee as he started to cry.

The Sun felt real sorrow for the blind man:
“Night is afraid of me, can’t you see?
The minute I rise She retreats to other lands!
It is only I who will help you to be free.”

“Sun, you flawed and imperfect star”,
Said the Devotee as his Anger grew stronger.
“A devil, a devil, a devil you are,
Giving life to us creatures only to kill us with fear!”

The Sun felt bad but did not reply,
As the Devotee felt pain ache through his heart.
The Devotee felt as if the Sun were a lie:
A ghastly raven, not a beautiful star.

To never worship the Sun, the Devotee had vowed.
He had also vowed to never worship the Night.
A crowd of people, by now, gathered ‘round,
And their voices caused the Devotee fright.

“Blind man, blind man, can’t you see?
What are you doing, for whom do you suffer?”
“I was once the Sun’s favourite Devotee,
But for true Love, I can only rely on my Mother.”

The onlookers attempted to offer advice,
But the Devotee had already started to leave.
He tripped over obstacles thanks to no sense of sight,
But he somehow made it; he would finally be free.

Outside of his Mother’s beautiful home,
Where the Devotee had been nurtured and loved.
He stood there by himself, he indeed felt alone,
But above him flew a small, gorgeous Dove.

The Dove’s presence he heard as he knocked,
But to his surprise, there was no answer.
The Devotee forcefully opened the lock,
And in there was Death in the form of his Mother.

The Devotee wept for mercy from the gods,
Not even his Mother could he now trust.
The Devotee wasn’t asking for a lot,
He just needed someone to give him true Love.

Someone reliable, someone true;
The Devotee wanted an unchanging constant.
The Devotee felt there was nothing more to lose,
So he prayed to the Dove who had now flown to the fountain.

As the Water trickled down onto the bird’s white feathers,
The Devotee asked the Dove for advice:
“Why do all the gods keep me tethered?
Why won’t they let me, but allow you to fly?”

The Dove replied to the Devotee:
“You will not find your answer in pain.
You will not find your answer in misery,
But anguish is necessary for gain.”

“Of course, there’s a catch”, said the Devotee,
“There just has to be pain and suffering!”
The Devotee entered psychotherapy;
A final attempt to discover life’s Meaning.

“What ails?”, asked the Therapist,
The Devotee replied, “I have nobody.
Of my problems I’ve made an entire list.”
The Devotee gave it to the Therapist.

By the end of the hour, he felt renewed,
The Devotee knew he’d found his god.
But soon his therapy became a feud,
He was stubborn and refused to change a lot.

As the Devotee ate a rather bland lunch,
He decided to terminate psychotherapy.
His unconscious, the Devotee hated very much;
The depths of his mind were quite painful to see.

The blind Devotee longed for much more.
He couldn’t understand what was wrong with him.
All he wanted to do was to see the Sun’s core.
How could he have known how painfully it would sting?

The Devotee needed a god who could pave a road
To Compassion and Kindness, to Happiness and Love.
So he went to the bank and took out a loan,
To worship the material, to turn to Fun.

Fun seemed like He could not betray,
But betray He could, and betray He did.
The Devotee lost all the money he’d saved,
And realised that Fun was nothing but a fib.

The Devotee, now growing old and weak,
Desired Meaning though he had lost all Hope.
Meaning and Love he attempted to seek,
But in Misery and Sadness, he was now soaked.

He cried to Love: “Where are you?
Everyone eludes me, why do they do so?”
Love replied: “I live within you,
You elude everyone, why do you do so?”

The Devotee became enveloped in Anger,
“How could I possibly love another?
Others fail to give me Love.
Even my own, my dearest Mother!”

Then immortal Death arrived at the scene.
Immortal Death, whom the Devotee hated.
“You took my Mother away from me,
Are you here to offer condolences, albeit belated?”

“No”, said Death with a sad expression,
“I am the source of all true Meaning.”
The Devotee still hadn’t learned his lesson,
So Death continued to inspect his feelings.

“I’ve worked with Love throughout my life,
To bring Meaning to every mortal’s day.
Together, we help you to avoid evil Strife,
But it’s your duty to follow our ways.

“You must love, and you must give,
You must help others and yourself.
You will then begin to truly live,
You will indeed avoid the fires of Hell.”

So Death spoke reassuring words,
To a Devotee whose Ignorance began to leave.
“Love and Death, allies? That’s a first!”,
Said the laughing Devotee, who was now finally free.

To find Meaning and Purpose wasn’t hard.
The Devotee just needed to be more logical.
The moment he started to follow his heart,
He found joy in doing that which is ethical.

The Devotee worshipped gods no more.
He worshipped the goodness around him, instead.
People are made not to succeed and soar,
But to keep their brethren healthy and well-fed.

The Devotee was now truly devoted
To a life of Compassion and of Service.
Now, the Sun, the Devotee supported,
Despite the Devotee’s painful blindness.

The Devotee then spoke his final words,
As the people around him cried rivers of tears:
“Lead a life of Love and serve others,
Do not be enslaved to pleasures or fears.”

So the Devotee spoke prophetic words,
And went to Heaven to live with God.
Love and Death are allies, that’s for certain:
The opening and closing of the curtains.

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